the dream

ive been having these really weird dreams about my classmates lately and i sort of noticed that wherever those dreams take me, there is always the notable presence of one person: ezra. i don't know why he's always in my dreams but i don't really care. he's not my business any longer.

well, here goes my first dream. my classmates and i were on a very huge tree house which has this very green stuff beneath it. we were all talkin above there. btw, im referring to my three-gawa classmates. not that it matters. so we were talking when raffy and ezra came with these shouting fits telling us that there was this big river and that we all have to see it. in turn, we were all shocked so we all hurried to get to this river...those who were really really desperate took pedi-cabs. and well, one of them was my clique. well, all of them rode of course, except me. they were all moving forwards while i was shouting trying to stop them but they wouldn't listen. so i stopped running and went back to my house. i cried and cried and cried again. then, i turned my pc on and started, can u believe it, writing my blog! so weird, right? well then after i posted what i wrote, someone knocked and i saw it was panyang. she was saying sorry but i was too angry to forgive her so i pushed her away and she left me with this really bad feud. hmm...when i woke up, my pillows were soakin wet and i was VERY thankful that all of it was unreal...

my next dream was the most beautiful and meaningLESS and utterly painfully IMPOSSIBLE dream ive ever had. well it featured yet again ezra and my classmates. well we were walking to dolly's house for a reason i have yet to figure out..i was walking with ezra and the rest of the group was ahead of us. we were kind of talkin about the class we had that same day. we were kind of happy and we were laughing like we used to before our little misunderstanding. so we were talking when he just, out-of-a-sudden took my hand. and i looked at him and he looked at me and we were staring at each other. then suddenly, he had this serious look on and he was crying and i was kind of shocked. then i asked him if he was feeling okay, then he grabbed my shoulders and told me the most wonderful hackneyed sentence that every girl dreams of hearing..take note..he said it in vernacular.then i cried and he cried then i asked when. but suddenly, he ran and our classmates started chasing him and they chased him all over town until they got him to face me. we continued to talk and we were really serious then he invited me to dinner at their house and i said okay. his whole family was there and he offered to cook, we ate then i washed the dishes. then he asked if i could sleep with him just that night. of course not the sleep-sex part..u know..the sleeping that involves breathing and closing of eyes. i thought it was sweet and i said yes and i woke up.

well my pillow that morning was double-wet coz i was really hurt. well the pain was overwhelming and i cried until i took a bath then i cried inside when i saw him at school. well i was really hurt because i know that it will never happen and it was the biggest lie of all. but anyway, im over it now because i realized last night i shouldn't waste my nights dreaming about a stupid boy telling me stupid lies about some stupid unreal feelings. my dreams are bogus and i never wanna dream about anything like that again.

my third dream was about a fiesta..im not sure where and what..but we were all fresh from eating and we were visiting this really cool bazarre...u know..shopping for bracelet stuffs and burloloys and those kind of things. but this time. i think i might have been awake in that dream because when i saw him, i walked away. it was really weird how i avoided his path but anyway, i was glad.

well so mcuh for my stupid insignificant dreams which would remain as dreams for the rest of my history. i won't be getting any feud, confessions or proposals from any member of my class in any day of my lifetime. i swear to GOD that.