when i get stuck in my own reverie...

well last night, i got myself soaked in the rain. just for a few seconds...

the feeling of wetness on my skin was beautiful and i wanted to just stay stuck in our patio,indulging my thoughts on the nothingness that hovered before me. the atmosphere was cold but i liked how my skin interacted with it. it's like the rain and i have this connection. the feeling's kind of mutual. im always in good mood when it rains and i don't mind if it disfigures a one-hour-done hair do. furthermore, rain has always a strange way of making me think and recall and remember. it's like a two-way ticket to a very significant reverie.

so i went in and got in bed, but i couldn't sleep. i turned the tv on and flicked through the channels. surprisingly, the shows weren't that bad but i found myself uninterested in the least. i resumed my curled position and my mind suddenly went blank. after a while, there was nothing i could think of and the next second, everything was coming back to me. i thought of everything.

first, i thought of myself and heard myself saying "go to the computer and write something" i was going to but lethargy (okay, okay...laziness)got the best of me so i stayed in that position. and then i began to think how capriciously ambitious i've become. my ambitions are sort of impossible and i don't like the way im turning out to be because of them.

second, i thought of my friends. hmmm.....just realized i wouldn't be me without them and i love them to my last breath. speaking of love, well i also thought about it. a) i confirm that im completely over ezra. i talked to him yesterday and had some interaction but i didn't even blush. he's just an ordinary guy to me now. b) i think im going crazy. why? because im crushin on someone im not supposed to be crushin. but im not gonna write his name here. im a really strange person and i think we have too much in common to ever have this mutual understanding. problem is, he's this very sweet guy and that's the first thing that i fall for. f**k! (yeah right, why don't i just write it, right?) im not in the mood for cussing...

third, CMLI. im kind of excited because i AM!! enough said, right?

4th: my mom...ala lng...naisip ko lang sha...hehe..

lastly: my hair. *sighs* had it rebonded a week ago but it seemed like it just got worse...fuck....now im in the mood..

'till here...oh...i haven't wrote anything for my birthday...how bleak of me...