to chloe

well today i proved that first impressions never last. well, my friends and a lot of people know im not a hilary duff fan because of her feud with lindsay. but other than that and her singing which I think is so bubblegum (which I hate), I sort of like her because i think she's got this quirky characteristic. well whatever. so i was really bored last tuesday afternoon so i decided to search the net for news on lindsay lohan and hilary duff and i kind of stumbled on this hate site by jennifer folan which is quite 'drastic'. so i read all that she wrote there and i agreed on other things and i disagreed on others. nevertheless, i still hated hilary duff's singing. so i went to sign on her guestbook and told everybody there that i saw raise ur voice and didn't like it because hilary duff sucked in the singing and i surmised that the voice she used there wasn't her own and even if it was, it was assisted by several machines or whatever.

so i went back there yesterday to see if anyone reacted and one person did and her reply was quite 'violent' word-wise. well, her name was CHLOE and she called me dumbass and criticized my acting career as inferior to that of hilary duff's. well i lost my head because i really hate people who call me stupid when im really not, it's something that i couldn't take. so then..i lost it and i replied. i called her a sick insane ugly bitch, called her a sicko and insulted her about her brother. well, she told me she appreciated raise ur voice because like terry, she also lost her brother. well, because my words get really bad when im angry, i also told her im sorry that her brother had her for a sister. i know. it's so totally not me.

well, i visited there again today and saw her reply. and she actually said sorry for calling me stupid and stuff like that...she also told me that her brother died even before he was born and it just broke my heart that i said something like that at someone as kind as her...i can't help it but at that very moment, i wanted to just disappear..i am so ashamed of myself.

chloe, im really, really sorry. if could just go to where you are right now and apologize to u personally, i really, really would. i felt so stupid for calling you all those things, and to think u were so forgiving and all. i want u to know that i actually cried when i read that u were filipino because calling a fellow pinoy an ugly stupid bitch would be last thing i'd do. im really really sorry. and i even felt guiltier when u said u visited my blog. i felt so touched...*pulls out a kleenex*

well, so much for that...i just wanna let it out...and tell the world that there are still people like you out there who have big hearts...im really sorry and im glad we met. although we didn't have a good start, i hope we can still be friends. u know, if u weren't a fan and i wasn't a hater, im sure we would have been good friends. anyway, it's gettin long and again, I'm so SORRY. about ur brother, too...i really didn't mean to write those preposterous things about u and if ur brother was alive, im SURE he'd have felt so lucky to have a sister like you.

I'm sorry again. Toodles! n_~