Bad Morning

I woke up bad today. I slept at 2 am and had my alarm set at 4 and I woke up at 7 instead and found out that all the files I saved last night are gone. Fuck. I hibernated the fucking computer.

I'm going home tonight so I ought to feel better. And luckily, I only have one exam. But I have two classes. Last night, was my niece Nikki's birthday. It was held at Hotel Asia. Boy, the people! I was genuinely shocked at the crowd last night! And I brought Patette, Sordy and Godece with me too. I wanted them to meet my family. It was a shame though that my mom wasn't able to come. I'd love for them to meet her. But what really broke my heart was Tit's expression. He didn't seem at all happy. He probably misses mom already because he's leaving again for work. Kuya, too, will be leaving next week. It makes me sad knowing my mom has to be alone again for a long time. I don't know if she's gotten used to it but people don't normally want to me alone. It gives them too much time to think. And I don't like the things she might be thinking...with lolo dying and tits leaving and all. I just feel, even for a day,that I need to be with her and make her feel that even if we don't have that ideal mother-daughter bond, that I love her and I don't want her to feel sad.

But anyway. Life is sometimes that way. All I can do for her is to give my best on the exams. *sighs*

I'm still feeling pissed but not that much anymore.