i was just in cebu this morning and yesterday was like one of the best days of my social life! i mean my mom was so cool cause we went shopping for one whole day! and i got a lot of new stuff...we also got to watch the da vinci code but had to consequently lie about our age but whatever. i think the movie was just okay compared to the book..i didn't get that much excitement...but anyway, i still enjoyed it. so then after we shopped, we went to the pirated dvd area and like bought four of them! and i got to bu just my luck!!!! OMG!! i was so psyched that all i could think was go home and watch it! i also bought just friends dvd and FMA eps. 20-35...well i told my sister to buy RK seisouhen arc instead but she kept on grumbling so i just gave her the shit. we stayed in mercedez hotel. AGAIN. well, i hate that hotel...especially the cr..i mean everything was dusty, malfunctional and well, it's not the type of stuff u get to see in 'hotels'. but i had no say in the matter because its become our family tradition to stay in mercedez whenever we go in cebu. im just glad we only stayed for one day. otherwise, i would have died from severe nostalgia.
that day, my acrophobia just went stepped to a higher level...i mean i couldn't stomach looking at the escalators for five minutes..those stuff are the only things i hate about shopping. i really really hate escalators and i still get nauseous even when i take the stairs. i almost cried at metro gaisano yesterday because i really really couldn't stomach stepping into the moving steps...so then i forced my sister to take the stairs and we did but i was still dizzy. i totally hate my condition but i think it's a sort of pay off for the new things i got. hmm...
well, JUST my luck is now my favorite movie! oh and i also bough lindsay lohan's new album, a little more personal ( so cool!!) but i also had to consequently had to barter my green penshoppe shirt for it because my mom wouldn't agree to buy it without the stinkin' permission of my sister. well, im sure u get the idea. well am i not totally a frickin' lindsay lohan fanatic?! well i guess i am...that's why i hate hilary duff but after i saw cadet kelly, hmm...let's just say i don't hate her that much anymore...
yesterday and today is like the best days of summer! well, too bad it had to end and i have to face the real world which is school. somehow, i lost the will and the heart but i don't know..maybe the idea of actually being a senior gets u going somehow. well, that's about it. 'till next time, byotch! n_~
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Thursday, May 25, 2006
to chloe
well today i proved that first impressions never last. well, my friends and a lot of people know im not a hilary duff fan because of her feud with lindsay. but other than that and her singing which I think is so bubblegum (which I hate), I sort of like her because i think she's got this quirky characteristic. well whatever. so i was really bored last tuesday afternoon so i decided to search the net for news on lindsay lohan and hilary duff and i kind of stumbled on this hate site by jennifer folan which is quite 'drastic'. so i read all that she wrote there and i agreed on other things and i disagreed on others. nevertheless, i still hated hilary duff's singing. so i went to sign on her guestbook and told everybody there that i saw raise ur voice and didn't like it because hilary duff sucked in the singing and i surmised that the voice she used there wasn't her own and even if it was, it was assisted by several machines or whatever.
so i went back there yesterday to see if anyone reacted and one person did and her reply was quite 'violent' word-wise. well, her name was CHLOE and she called me dumbass and criticized my acting career as inferior to that of hilary duff's. well i lost my head because i really hate people who call me stupid when im really not, it's something that i couldn't take. so then..i lost it and i replied. i called her a sick insane ugly bitch, called her a sicko and insulted her about her brother. well, she told me she appreciated raise ur voice because like terry, she also lost her brother. well, because my words get really bad when im angry, i also told her im sorry that her brother had her for a sister. i know. it's so totally not me.
well, i visited there again today and saw her reply. and she actually said sorry for calling me stupid and stuff like that...she also told me that her brother died even before he was born and it just broke my heart that i said something like that at someone as kind as her...i can't help it but at that very moment, i wanted to just disappear..i am so ashamed of myself.
chloe, im really, really sorry. if could just go to where you are right now and apologize to u personally, i really, really would. i felt so stupid for calling you all those things, and to think u were so forgiving and all. i want u to know that i actually cried when i read that u were filipino because calling a fellow pinoy an ugly stupid bitch would be last thing i'd do. im really really sorry. and i even felt guiltier when u said u visited my blog. i felt so touched...*pulls out a kleenex*
well, so much for that...i just wanna let it out...and tell the world that there are still people like you out there who have big hearts...im really sorry and im glad we met. although we didn't have a good start, i hope we can still be friends. u know, if u weren't a fan and i wasn't a hater, im sure we would have been good friends. anyway, it's gettin long and again, I'm so SORRY. about ur brother, too...i really didn't mean to write those preposterous things about u and if ur brother was alive, im SURE he'd have felt so lucky to have a sister like you.
I'm sorry again. Toodles! n_~
so i went back there yesterday to see if anyone reacted and one person did and her reply was quite 'violent' word-wise. well, her name was CHLOE and she called me dumbass and criticized my acting career as inferior to that of hilary duff's. well i lost my head because i really hate people who call me stupid when im really not, it's something that i couldn't take. so then..i lost it and i replied. i called her a sick insane ugly bitch, called her a sicko and insulted her about her brother. well, she told me she appreciated raise ur voice because like terry, she also lost her brother. well, because my words get really bad when im angry, i also told her im sorry that her brother had her for a sister. i know. it's so totally not me.
well, i visited there again today and saw her reply. and she actually said sorry for calling me stupid and stuff like that...she also told me that her brother died even before he was born and it just broke my heart that i said something like that at someone as kind as her...i can't help it but at that very moment, i wanted to just disappear..i am so ashamed of myself.
chloe, im really, really sorry. if could just go to where you are right now and apologize to u personally, i really, really would. i felt so stupid for calling you all those things, and to think u were so forgiving and all. i want u to know that i actually cried when i read that u were filipino because calling a fellow pinoy an ugly stupid bitch would be last thing i'd do. im really really sorry. and i even felt guiltier when u said u visited my blog. i felt so touched...*pulls out a kleenex*
well, so much for that...i just wanna let it out...and tell the world that there are still people like you out there who have big hearts...im really sorry and im glad we met. although we didn't have a good start, i hope we can still be friends. u know, if u weren't a fan and i wasn't a hater, im sure we would have been good friends. anyway, it's gettin long and again, I'm so SORRY. about ur brother, too...i really didn't mean to write those preposterous things about u and if ur brother was alive, im SURE he'd have felt so lucky to have a sister like you.
I'm sorry again. Toodles! n_~
Sunday, May 21, 2006
party time
last night was the BOMB!! I mean the bomb...well yesterday was San Jose fiesta and like we always do annualy, we went there for one day and get to watch these pageant whose contestants still possess the usual stupidity and lack of english skills. but whatever, i guess their beauty could compensate...well, i also got to meet my auntie and my uncle from canada which i didn't know existed until yesterday..they were like so cool because they were the frst to dance in the middle of the dancefloor with what like a hudnred people watching. uncle's dance moves was so superb we couldn't help but laugh at him. i also met my second-degree cousins which i didn't know existed, too. well, it was very inteligent to mind
in my part that two of them, argel and kuya choi were very handsome and japorms na japorms. the other one is ate melody, who was so cool because she's got this slick and slender figure that i think a lot of girls her age would die for. so back to my 2nd-degree cousins cuties...not only were they hot but they could also bust some really serious dance moves. i mean it was my first time to ever enjoy a disco with people i met not over ten minutes ago...which was cool because at first they wouldn't talk to us but then when we went upstairs they were like, "Oh, agaw! You can call me choi..." I was like kilig for a moment but then i pressed in my head that we were cousins and I better stay away. well whatever, as if he and his brother were my type.
argel was like this chickboy kind of guy and he dances in this horny kind of way that's nonetheless appealing. actually, he was teasing me with his dance moves so i showed him my vibrating move and accidentally hit his crotch!!!! OMG!! I know! It's so terryfying but we acted like nothing happened but i did feel my but hitting his...whatever it was! Hahahaha!!! OMG! We're cousins! We're cousins! we're cool.
i also met the cousins of my cousisn and i thought they were really cool to be withand i'd like to hang out with them another time, it's too bad we have to leave early. oh and i also realized that my mom was cool after all. i mean when we were in the car she just blurted out that the first thing we should do in cebu is watch the da vinci code. i was like, "really?" but how about the age thing?" Then my mother told me we could just simply lie about our age and besides, i don't look that young either.
oh and also last night, i lost my voice for the very FIRST time from shouting and yelling and dancing and talking...but it was cool because i got it back first thing in the morning. well so much for that...i look forwards again next year..my summer wasn't bad after all...haha...
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
stupid storm haha
so this week was kind of horrible. everything was like on the other side of the road. the weather was disappointing and i wasn't able to sleep last wednesday night because of the storm and it reminded me of those voices in amytiville horror. well anyway, when i woke up the storm was still there but i was glad it mitigated a little. another thing upset everyone this week: the series of blackouts throughout the town. i mean, i missed a whole week of kaleido star! i hate it! and now we couldn't get a damn cable reception! and our phone had no dial tone! argh! what could be any fuckin worse? i couldn't watch tv, no internet and all i could do is write my guts out and stare at the computer screen all day. am not sayin it's bad because before the blackouts and all, i received a most precious review from one of my favorite authors, gypsy-chan! i mean i was so happy i almost french-kissed the computer screen! so that got be back to my feet and my inspiration went back and i was able to write again...
another good thing also happened..my ipod finally went back after travelling all the way from singapore! it's in good condition now but it also frustrated me because i couldn't update it because it requireed the 5.0 version of i.tunes, the itunes i have was version 4.8. i wanted to update it but because the phone had no dial tone, i couldn;t connect to the internet. hmm...everything just got boring.
well, it was mother's day last sunday and i greeted my mom during the night. and she complained, saying we were too late! i actually got hurt a little because if she had just like put up this approachable image, i should have greeted her first thing in the morning! but that's just it, because she makes it so hard for us to reach out to her as a mother...she is a good provider but she was never been the mother you can talk to about problems and so not the mother you can just hug and say i love you to everyday! she's the business type and she was never really hands-on, on us. but it doesn't matter. we're kind of used to her that way and maybe i love her that way she is.
oh and im now officially addicted to caffeine! i even named the bear my cousin gave me cofee! well because im addicted to caffeine, im now craving for dark chocolates, which is my fave choc but haven't ate any since summer! my mom gave me two huge bars of this VERY dark Polish choc called terravita delicate, it's like 77% cocoa and i sort of devoured the first bar the same afternoon she gave it to me. well but i actually didn't enjoy it as much as i'd like to because i was thinking of stipay...well, the first thing that i thought when i saw those dark bars was stipay...dark chocs are one of our common likes and i think it will give her ferrero rocher a run for the money! stipay, omg! you should taste it, it's so dark! haha! I wanna let you taste it so bad i didn't lay a hand on the second bar...i wish you were here and share my dark choc moment! i miss already! and hapi mothers day to ur mom..sorry didn't reply...my stepdad didn't tell me about the message..anyhoo, i hope you do good there...miss u already!
another good thing also happened..my ipod finally went back after travelling all the way from singapore! it's in good condition now but it also frustrated me because i couldn't update it because it requireed the 5.0 version of i.tunes, the itunes i have was version 4.8. i wanted to update it but because the phone had no dial tone, i couldn;t connect to the internet. hmm...everything just got boring.
well, it was mother's day last sunday and i greeted my mom during the night. and she complained, saying we were too late! i actually got hurt a little because if she had just like put up this approachable image, i should have greeted her first thing in the morning! but that's just it, because she makes it so hard for us to reach out to her as a mother...she is a good provider but she was never been the mother you can talk to about problems and so not the mother you can just hug and say i love you to everyday! she's the business type and she was never really hands-on, on us. but it doesn't matter. we're kind of used to her that way and maybe i love her that way she is.
oh and im now officially addicted to caffeine! i even named the bear my cousin gave me cofee! well because im addicted to caffeine, im now craving for dark chocolates, which is my fave choc but haven't ate any since summer! my mom gave me two huge bars of this VERY dark Polish choc called terravita delicate, it's like 77% cocoa and i sort of devoured the first bar the same afternoon she gave it to me. well but i actually didn't enjoy it as much as i'd like to because i was thinking of stipay...well, the first thing that i thought when i saw those dark bars was stipay...dark chocs are one of our common likes and i think it will give her ferrero rocher a run for the money! stipay, omg! you should taste it, it's so dark! haha! I wanna let you taste it so bad i didn't lay a hand on the second bar...i wish you were here and share my dark choc moment! i miss already! and hapi mothers day to ur mom..sorry didn't reply...my stepdad didn't tell me about the message..anyhoo, i hope you do good there...miss u already!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
so the drama
so ive been designing blog templates lately and this one im using right now is actually my third one. haha..im so proud! anyways, there had been a series of black-out since yesterday and well, i finally went to ormoc on my own last saturday. my inspiration also came back after i received an amazing 120 reviews. isn't that revitalizing?
well anyway, the blackout today got me thinking. *sighs* have you ever wondered why sometimes the things you wish to forget are the things you often remember? ive forcing myself to forget him already and how happy i feel when i hear his voice or when he jokes around...it's weird but i just can't get him off my mind. everything just reminds me of his eyes, his smile, everything. then i look at the phone and wonder if he'll ever call me soon or i check out my mail and hope to see a message, even a short one from him, asking if i was okay, what i was doing, stuff about me that he used to ask when we were still best-friend-close. i try to erase his secrets from my memory but it haunts every damn time i lie down and ponder. i feel so stupid right now because i feel so inferior, like im the biggest fool of all. but whatever really. i guess it's better this way because it'll prevent me from hurting more in the future now that we're graduating and all. but hey, maybe i'll find someone else better when i go to college. i just want to kick myself for realizing this late that we don't deserve each other and we're too different to ever become each others' fate. it was stupid to ever consider that. the things we thought were destiny were merely coincidences. maybe because we're both clumsy and careless and independent and moody and pretentious.
but our similarities stop there. we don't have anything else in common. but it feels good to know that he's as stupid as i am because he goes around fooling himself everybody likes him and everybody is interested in his secrets, his life and everything that he has to say. he's stupid for ever thinking that i would still chase him after what he did and said to me. he's stupid for ever thinking that saying sorry was enough. he destroyed our friendship but furthermore, he destroyed my trust, contrary to what he alleged me of doing. im not mad at him, im just thankful i realized soon enough that i deserved better than mr-everybody-wants-me. but thinking about me thinking about him all the time just makes me wanna rip up my scalp. im so fed up with my thoughts but no matter how i try, i can't get them to go away.
*heaves chest* well i finally let it out. i just have to let out. well, to him, i dedicate this poem...
When everyone surfaces, I drown
And I waste in every rapid wave
I try to speak and breathe at the same time
But all that goes out of me are sparkles of water
When time comes that green monsters destroy me
I close my eyes and just smile to myself
It doesn't matter whatever becomes of me
As long as he stil says hello
In dreams I waste myself
Making foolish thoughts of tomorrow
I hated him for being so amiable
And I guess he'd never change
Confused by every second he's near
Is it just me or did we really have it?
So with a smile and an invisible tear
"Goodbye to every dream with you..."
Go to hell sucka! I deserve better than you! puss off!
well anyway, the blackout today got me thinking. *sighs* have you ever wondered why sometimes the things you wish to forget are the things you often remember? ive forcing myself to forget him already and how happy i feel when i hear his voice or when he jokes around...it's weird but i just can't get him off my mind. everything just reminds me of his eyes, his smile, everything. then i look at the phone and wonder if he'll ever call me soon or i check out my mail and hope to see a message, even a short one from him, asking if i was okay, what i was doing, stuff about me that he used to ask when we were still best-friend-close. i try to erase his secrets from my memory but it haunts every damn time i lie down and ponder. i feel so stupid right now because i feel so inferior, like im the biggest fool of all. but whatever really. i guess it's better this way because it'll prevent me from hurting more in the future now that we're graduating and all. but hey, maybe i'll find someone else better when i go to college. i just want to kick myself for realizing this late that we don't deserve each other and we're too different to ever become each others' fate. it was stupid to ever consider that. the things we thought were destiny were merely coincidences. maybe because we're both clumsy and careless and independent and moody and pretentious.
but our similarities stop there. we don't have anything else in common. but it feels good to know that he's as stupid as i am because he goes around fooling himself everybody likes him and everybody is interested in his secrets, his life and everything that he has to say. he's stupid for ever thinking that i would still chase him after what he did and said to me. he's stupid for ever thinking that saying sorry was enough. he destroyed our friendship but furthermore, he destroyed my trust, contrary to what he alleged me of doing. im not mad at him, im just thankful i realized soon enough that i deserved better than mr-everybody-wants-me. but thinking about me thinking about him all the time just makes me wanna rip up my scalp. im so fed up with my thoughts but no matter how i try, i can't get them to go away.
*heaves chest* well i finally let it out. i just have to let out. well, to him, i dedicate this poem...
When everyone surfaces, I drown
And I waste in every rapid wave
I try to speak and breathe at the same time
But all that goes out of me are sparkles of water
When time comes that green monsters destroy me
I close my eyes and just smile to myself
It doesn't matter whatever becomes of me
As long as he stil says hello
In dreams I waste myself
Making foolish thoughts of tomorrow
I hated him for being so amiable
And I guess he'd never change
Confused by every second he's near
Is it just me or did we really have it?
So with a smile and an invisible tear
"Goodbye to every dream with you..."
Go to hell sucka! I deserve better than you! puss off!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
clasmeyts 2
my classmates part 2!! *lolz* i stopped with quennie and well who but the motherly-figure sherezelle lagare comes to mind. well im kinda not so happy writing about her not because i don't like her or anything but because her mom died just last month..well it really makes me sad because i know how it feels to loose one parent..but i know she's a strong person and she'll move on. sherry is someone you can rely on, friendly and it's like when im with her, i feel sure about myself and about the things happenin all around me. weird but yeah i feel that. now, lemme move to ms. long-legged dolly. hello dolly, hello! if i can describe that girl in two words..it wud be frank and predominant. well frank because she's totally not afraid to voice out her opinions about an issue and predominant because she's bossy and she doesn't stop until she gets what she wants. sounds antagonistic right? but no, she can be the nicest person in the world too with her sweet little deeds and oh a lot of boys go gago over her coz she's so pretty..well that includes waaahh!!! T-T my second crush, mark.
well, mark. as a point of fact, i really didn't have a crush on that guy because i was only pretending to make someone else jealous...oh but then the joke was on me and before i knew it i was thinking about him all the time. that guy's very smart esp. in science but sometimes i have the hand over him and i think that i got closer to him when we got to be seatmates. (gah! yes people! all my crushes happen to be my seatmates!) he's tall and very kind and gentleman and prim and proper and a clean-freak...well its so weird but i lost my touch over him and realized he's so not my type...he's a good man and he amazes me a lot of times but i don't think i just go well with his world. enough with mark, i wanna go to rachele..
before mark told me that ms. db was his crush i thot it was the quiet girl rachele. that girl's not actually quiet...because when she's not in class, she talks like there's no tomorrow! she has everything...math genius, art geek, prolific writer, pretty mestiza face and a big heart. there is however one downside. she has this really squeaky voice, it's not bad though and it actually makes her cute all the more. hmm...oh since ive come to mark and rachele, wanna talk about nets..antonieto i mean...
*salutes* Mr. president! probably the most amazing leader ive ever encountered in my student life!!! when he leads a pack, it not only becomes a unit, it becoms invicible..and he's one hell of an artist too! but this guy is also very temperamental...trust me..you would really have to think before you speak when ur talking to him because one slip of your tongue and he would ignore u until he thinks ur sincerely sorry. ive gone thru that and *trembles* wouldn't want to happen that again. nets...hmm...who do i think when i think of nets? well okay, rachele...then when i think of rachele...i think of victor..
well victor or vicky (as we all like to call him) has the longest name in class. well, sometimes we tease him about his usher-look-alike looks. i guess i could assess that this guy is insensitive and well a little bit gullible. he's a good guy but sometimes he tends to be harsh on the female populace...well im talking based from experience. haha...but over.all, this guy is a good guy and i think he's a bit of a family man...i guess...oh then i wanna talk about alyssa...the chinky-eyed girl-next-door. good dancer, social butterfly, pretty, one of the most adored faces in campus, she's also kind but sometimes tend to be shy. well, that's her. so when there's alyssa, there's also jaye. well, jaye..another chinky-eyed gal...a total braniac..math whiz, sometimes she's so innocent we would make fun of her (mind in a very good way) a good friend, tends to be real close with everyone. has weird crushes and her dimples are so beautiful...hmm...what esle? disheveled hair? but whatever, coz she still looks good even with a bad hairday.
jaye....hmm....okay so i wanna talk about panyang. well, panyang is really stephanie which in short is hanie but people who are close friends with her (like me...lolz) call her panyang. but nah, coz even my mom calls her panyang. haha, like they're close or something...this sort of nut brown-haired girl is very outspoken, sociable, too and one of the smart girls in class who have beauty, too. ms. ang-ganda-ng-buhok-ko, i always see her flipping her hair. no offense to her but she's quite a horrible singer (but she admits she is) but quite a good dancer. has lots of friends and one of those you can tell your secrets to...with panyang is ytel..krystel really but we're all kinda used calling her ytel. well ytel..the top notcher in class, tall, beautiful face and hair, she seems maldita at first and snobby but when you get to know her, she's a very good friend. she dances, she plays the guitar and sports. what else could she not do? hmm...i don't know? well, with ytel and panyang, comes gael. okay, avigael..but we all call her gael in short because everybody thinks she's so windy. not that she's a braggart or anything because as a matter of fact, she's one of the humblest people i know. actually i don''t know where the wind issue started...but enough with winds. gael is a very good leader, she gets all hot when our classmates don't like listen to her....but then she cools down again and then gets mad again..the usual mood swings...but basically, that girl's one happy person.
im tired again...i gotta turn in...part 3's gonna come soon...oh and if any of you guys (my classmates) read this stuff, kindly tag a message on the tagboard, okay? and don't complain because it's what i think of you guys..okay? no hard feelings, just writing my thoughts out loud. and besidses, im getting the hang of my new keyboard. it's so THE keyboard...i love it to death! oh and wish stipay luck on her test..stipay good luck on your test, okay? and also with that belly dancing thingy... right now im actually playing the role of a babysitter...well okay it was only for one day and well i just confirmed that i really don't go well with kids. i bathed my baby cousin john paul and he slipped and then wailed very hard and like pulled little punches on me..then he just kept bugging me the whole day. but after it all, i felt actually nice...so odd, right?
well, mark. as a point of fact, i really didn't have a crush on that guy because i was only pretending to make someone else jealous...oh but then the joke was on me and before i knew it i was thinking about him all the time. that guy's very smart esp. in science but sometimes i have the hand over him and i think that i got closer to him when we got to be seatmates. (gah! yes people! all my crushes happen to be my seatmates!) he's tall and very kind and gentleman and prim and proper and a clean-freak...well its so weird but i lost my touch over him and realized he's so not my type...he's a good man and he amazes me a lot of times but i don't think i just go well with his world. enough with mark, i wanna go to rachele..
before mark told me that ms. db was his crush i thot it was the quiet girl rachele. that girl's not actually quiet...because when she's not in class, she talks like there's no tomorrow! she has everything...math genius, art geek, prolific writer, pretty mestiza face and a big heart. there is however one downside. she has this really squeaky voice, it's not bad though and it actually makes her cute all the more. hmm...oh since ive come to mark and rachele, wanna talk about nets..antonieto i mean...
*salutes* Mr. president! probably the most amazing leader ive ever encountered in my student life!!! when he leads a pack, it not only becomes a unit, it becoms invicible..and he's one hell of an artist too! but this guy is also very temperamental...trust me..you would really have to think before you speak when ur talking to him because one slip of your tongue and he would ignore u until he thinks ur sincerely sorry. ive gone thru that and *trembles* wouldn't want to happen that again. nets...hmm...who do i think when i think of nets? well okay, rachele...then when i think of rachele...i think of victor..
well victor or vicky (as we all like to call him) has the longest name in class. well, sometimes we tease him about his usher-look-alike looks. i guess i could assess that this guy is insensitive and well a little bit gullible. he's a good guy but sometimes he tends to be harsh on the female populace...well im talking based from experience. haha...but over.all, this guy is a good guy and i think he's a bit of a family man...i guess...oh then i wanna talk about alyssa...the chinky-eyed girl-next-door. good dancer, social butterfly, pretty, one of the most adored faces in campus, she's also kind but sometimes tend to be shy. well, that's her. so when there's alyssa, there's also jaye. well, jaye..another chinky-eyed gal...a total braniac..math whiz, sometimes she's so innocent we would make fun of her (mind in a very good way) a good friend, tends to be real close with everyone. has weird crushes and her dimples are so beautiful...hmm...what esle? disheveled hair? but whatever, coz she still looks good even with a bad hairday.
jaye....hmm....okay so i wanna talk about panyang. well, panyang is really stephanie which in short is hanie but people who are close friends with her (like me...lolz) call her panyang. but nah, coz even my mom calls her panyang. haha, like they're close or something...this sort of nut brown-haired girl is very outspoken, sociable, too and one of the smart girls in class who have beauty, too. ms. ang-ganda-ng-buhok-ko, i always see her flipping her hair. no offense to her but she's quite a horrible singer (but she admits she is) but quite a good dancer. has lots of friends and one of those you can tell your secrets to...with panyang is ytel..krystel really but we're all kinda used calling her ytel. well ytel..the top notcher in class, tall, beautiful face and hair, she seems maldita at first and snobby but when you get to know her, she's a very good friend. she dances, she plays the guitar and sports. what else could she not do? hmm...i don't know? well, with ytel and panyang, comes gael. okay, avigael..but we all call her gael in short because everybody thinks she's so windy. not that she's a braggart or anything because as a matter of fact, she's one of the humblest people i know. actually i don''t know where the wind issue started...but enough with winds. gael is a very good leader, she gets all hot when our classmates don't like listen to her....but then she cools down again and then gets mad again..the usual mood swings...but basically, that girl's one happy person.
im tired again...i gotta turn in...part 3's gonna come soon...oh and if any of you guys (my classmates) read this stuff, kindly tag a message on the tagboard, okay? and don't complain because it's what i think of you guys..okay? no hard feelings, just writing my thoughts out loud. and besidses, im getting the hang of my new keyboard. it's so THE keyboard...i love it to death! oh and wish stipay luck on her test..stipay good luck on your test, okay? and also with that belly dancing thingy... right now im actually playing the role of a babysitter...well okay it was only for one day and well i just confirmed that i really don't go well with kids. i bathed my baby cousin john paul and he slipped and then wailed very hard and like pulled little punches on me..then he just kept bugging me the whole day. but after it all, i felt actually nice...so odd, right?
Friday, May 05, 2006
my lyf sux
my life definitely sucks...yeah, yeah..so i've been saying that hackneyed phrase for years...so what? so what if my life does suck? because it really does...i mean i try to get a grip on myself but grrrr!! just can't!! so what if i don't have as much reviewers as i expected to have? so what if my stupid blog sux like me? so what if i blame myself for every stupid damn accident in the hoUse? so what if i forgot to bathe my dog or eat breakfast? so what if kellie pickler and ace young are voted out in american idol! so wat if animax decided to rewind conan to the start? so what if there's this stupid indie guy who keeps buggin me in yahoo? so wat if i don't know german? so what if ive been stuck in this goodamn house every single fuckin day? so what if my pimples are swellin'? so wat if im loosing weight? so what if i don't have any crush? so what if i got bitten by that stupid writers' block gremlin? so what if im writing this shit? so what if i updated this crappy blog? would anyone bother to read this pedagogic suckfest? so what? like i care...like i give a damn if tabby smells like shit all day or if my whole face breaks out with gazilli0n zits...like i give a shit if chris tucker or taylor wins that frickin' american idol! the hell i care! whatever...my life sucks...so what?
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
laptop issues
i took a moment last night to talk to God and complain to him all my problems. I know he wouldn't mind because I know He's sort of used with me blaming Him for all my problems, and I know He knows that I don't mean to take it all out on Him. well, yesterday, the laptop wouldn't work and i wanted to die in panic because i know that my stepdad's work is in there and to compromise that would be the last thing i wanted. the pc's malfunction wasn't really my fault, well partially maybe it was because i was the one who turned it on for ate mae ann. God knows how much i wanted to march straight into their house and pull all her hair out of her scalp. this is the second time she caused trouble into my life and i hate her. Lord knows h0w much I hate her but even if I do, I can't find it in my heart to do anything drastic.
sometimes, I hate God because of it. Because no matter how a person hurts me, I can't stay mad for a very long time but when it's me...when i subconsciously hurt someone, i have to do this begging stuff just so they could forgive me...but these people...they don't even say sorry and I forgive them straightforwardly. Everything's going down the drain for me this month...
well, first..it thought i was finally getting my dream 100 reviews because m0st stories i write don't even reach 60 reviews. my friends think im such a great great writer but im really n0t. everytime i read a second-rate story, something i think is much worse than mine and they have like 50 plus reviews in just the third chapter..i cry..because i don't it's fair that i only get this much reviews when i know im so much better...
and finally, i thought i was good and i was inspired because i finally had a lot of reviews and i thought i was finally getting a hundred but it didn't...it's like God doesn't want me to write...He just pulled me down right then and there and right now, i can't write a single word for my next chapter. i know it's stupid for me to say that when here i am writing this...
i am stupid and insane and i feel like im the worst failure in the world. i look at my sister and see her not worried one bit about the laptop, it's like i want to kill her or something because when it was still well, she uses it like a man riding seabiscuit.
anyway, i just hate today but i kn0w i have to face whatever comes. *sighs* here i am again...facing the damn consequences of something i didn't do..bullcrap...abosulute bullcrap...
sometimes, I hate God because of it. Because no matter how a person hurts me, I can't stay mad for a very long time but when it's me...when i subconsciously hurt someone, i have to do this begging stuff just so they could forgive me...but these people...they don't even say sorry and I forgive them straightforwardly. Everything's going down the drain for me this month...
well, first..it thought i was finally getting my dream 100 reviews because m0st stories i write don't even reach 60 reviews. my friends think im such a great great writer but im really n0t. everytime i read a second-rate story, something i think is much worse than mine and they have like 50 plus reviews in just the third chapter..i cry..because i don't it's fair that i only get this much reviews when i know im so much better...
and finally, i thought i was good and i was inspired because i finally had a lot of reviews and i thought i was finally getting a hundred but it didn't...it's like God doesn't want me to write...He just pulled me down right then and there and right now, i can't write a single word for my next chapter. i know it's stupid for me to say that when here i am writing this...
i am stupid and insane and i feel like im the worst failure in the world. i look at my sister and see her not worried one bit about the laptop, it's like i want to kill her or something because when it was still well, she uses it like a man riding seabiscuit.
anyway, i just hate today but i kn0w i have to face whatever comes. *sighs* here i am again...facing the damn consequences of something i didn't do..bullcrap...abosulute bullcrap...
Monday, May 01, 2006
weekend
the past weekend had been amazing. at five on friday my cousins and i met on granpa's house and collected m0ney for dinnner. well, we wanted to have a barbeque party at the plaza again, all thanks to the family council president, erika. we collected lots of money and then we ate all night at the plaza, then barbeque, then i watched the ending of encantadia and missed kim sam soon. bummer right? whatever, shame on me if i exchange my family for that fat witch. *lolz* after dinner, we played again until we lost all our breaths and the hour reached eleven. but we're not like bitin and all coz we get to see each other the next day.
the next day which was saturday at the same hour, we head to uncle galvin's becaus e it was maxene's birthday, whho by the way does not recognize me anymore. well, anyway...we ate there and then played with the birthday girl and talked about ourselves until we decided to head for the plaza to play again. so we played hide and seek for what seemed like hours and we were a bit ann0yed with bianca because she was always on guard at the base but then we got through with it anyway. then after that, after kaye got hurt again [again because she was abberated during our last homebase game], we stopped and talked. erika lost her mood to play because the elders [aunties and uncles] won't let us have our dream pajama party so the girls just talked and the boys went to play basketball, except for klyde that is because he still doesn't know how to play basketball yet. the music that night was euphoric because we didn't seem to mind the hundreds of people throwing dagger at us as we moved to the beat.
we all danced together and we were totally crazy. then i showed them my vibrating m0ves and they seemed to like it. after the l0ve songs replaced the techno vibe, we all sat down and decided to play marko polo. [another one of family traditional games] well, we did and we had loads of fun. actually, that time, the elders already conceded to having a slumber party which we only conduct once every summer. but unfortunately, only me and my sister, erika and klyde and aya and kaye and andre were present. gian was stuck in their house babysitting adrian while clark and vincent weren't permitted to go, so were elijah and chelsea. neverthe less, we had fun and watched my scene and talked ourselves to sleep. we set the alarm at five so we could go jog in the morning but we woke up even before it sounded.
we were tired but we wouldn't want to miss the rare oppurtunity to loose some carbs so we went for it and tried to go over ten laps around the plaza cirlce? well *lolz* how many laps we made? amazingly FOUR!!! But of course, we weren’t that dumb to figure that it wasn’t enough so we decided to jog all around town and we did taking a fork towards central. I sort of didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would because of my stinking air pressure allergies. Well, it’s like when my body meets air pressure, it starts to itch and I was doing just that while I struggle to cope with their pace. We finally reached destination and sat ourselves in the middle of the left island and played UNO [our favorite card game]. We were like that for one and a half hours because no one was close to loosing or winning. We got tired of course and went back to the house to eat breakfast, watched a movie and slept until afternoon.
That afternoon, we planned to go to the five ‘o’clock mass but it was beyond any of my wildest presentiments that we were going to embarrass ourselves again in front of hundred churhgoers. Well, because we didn’t want andre to be alone to fend for himself, we asked him to go with us at church, the kid agreed even if he was a born again Christian. At the start, kaye and klyde and Vincent was talking very loudly and no matter how I tried to shut them up, they won’t. but the worst part was andre was sleeping and we was rocking his chair. A second later, we all found him falling headfirst to the ground and before I had the chance to put my finger on it, he started running hysterically outside. Out of panic and c0ncern of course, we all ran towards him, leaving the mass and the flabbergasted people who must have thought that the cerillo kids are the m0st insane and embarrassing children in t0wn. Grr...well, it’s over n0 use talking about it.
That night, yesterday night, we played hide and seek again but we stopped abruptly because ate juliebeth swore and which we vouched among ourselvesn was true, that klyde was cheating and the little boy insisted he didn’t. ate juliebeth was angry as hell because klyde cursed her in this really loud voice which everyone in the plaza must have heard. *whacks head* great. An0ther embarrassing mom0ent for us...
Well, the night ended with us meeting aya’s admirer, a kid resembling cory Baxter so we sorta called him cory corikong!!! *lolz* that was funny and the night ended with all of us laughing.
*sighs* too bad it had to end s00n...
the next day which was saturday at the same hour, we head to uncle galvin's becaus e it was maxene's birthday, whho by the way does not recognize me anymore. well, anyway...we ate there and then played with the birthday girl and talked about ourselves until we decided to head for the plaza to play again. so we played hide and seek for what seemed like hours and we were a bit ann0yed with bianca because she was always on guard at the base but then we got through with it anyway. then after that, after kaye got hurt again [again because she was abberated during our last homebase game], we stopped and talked. erika lost her mood to play because the elders [aunties and uncles] won't let us have our dream pajama party so the girls just talked and the boys went to play basketball, except for klyde that is because he still doesn't know how to play basketball yet. the music that night was euphoric because we didn't seem to mind the hundreds of people throwing dagger at us as we moved to the beat.
we all danced together and we were totally crazy. then i showed them my vibrating m0ves and they seemed to like it. after the l0ve songs replaced the techno vibe, we all sat down and decided to play marko polo. [another one of family traditional games] well, we did and we had loads of fun. actually, that time, the elders already conceded to having a slumber party which we only conduct once every summer. but unfortunately, only me and my sister, erika and klyde and aya and kaye and andre were present. gian was stuck in their house babysitting adrian while clark and vincent weren't permitted to go, so were elijah and chelsea. neverthe less, we had fun and watched my scene and talked ourselves to sleep. we set the alarm at five so we could go jog in the morning but we woke up even before it sounded.
we were tired but we wouldn't want to miss the rare oppurtunity to loose some carbs so we went for it and tried to go over ten laps around the plaza cirlce? well *lolz* how many laps we made? amazingly FOUR!!! But of course, we weren’t that dumb to figure that it wasn’t enough so we decided to jog all around town and we did taking a fork towards central. I sort of didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would because of my stinking air pressure allergies. Well, it’s like when my body meets air pressure, it starts to itch and I was doing just that while I struggle to cope with their pace. We finally reached destination and sat ourselves in the middle of the left island and played UNO [our favorite card game]. We were like that for one and a half hours because no one was close to loosing or winning. We got tired of course and went back to the house to eat breakfast, watched a movie and slept until afternoon.
That afternoon, we planned to go to the five ‘o’clock mass but it was beyond any of my wildest presentiments that we were going to embarrass ourselves again in front of hundred churhgoers. Well, because we didn’t want andre to be alone to fend for himself, we asked him to go with us at church, the kid agreed even if he was a born again Christian. At the start, kaye and klyde and Vincent was talking very loudly and no matter how I tried to shut them up, they won’t. but the worst part was andre was sleeping and we was rocking his chair. A second later, we all found him falling headfirst to the ground and before I had the chance to put my finger on it, he started running hysterically outside. Out of panic and c0ncern of course, we all ran towards him, leaving the mass and the flabbergasted people who must have thought that the cerillo kids are the m0st insane and embarrassing children in t0wn. Grr...well, it’s over n0 use talking about it.
That night, yesterday night, we played hide and seek again but we stopped abruptly because ate juliebeth swore and which we vouched among ourselvesn was true, that klyde was cheating and the little boy insisted he didn’t. ate juliebeth was angry as hell because klyde cursed her in this really loud voice which everyone in the plaza must have heard. *whacks head* great. An0ther embarrassing mom0ent for us...
Well, the night ended with us meeting aya’s admirer, a kid resembling cory Baxter so we sorta called him cory corikong!!! *lolz* that was funny and the night ended with all of us laughing.
*sighs* too bad it had to end s00n...
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