Wednesday, October 05, 2016

I must have smoked more cigarettes today than I had in two months. The Hail Marys have come and gone from my lips, but still my heart feels like a mass of filth and ruin, screaming with the violence of a tempest that picks up more strength as it moves viciously over the dark waves.

 It was my birthday yesterday, and already I've hidden in more than one cubicle to cry out the tears stuck in my throat. Every day brings more agony than the last, and the more I kneel in front of the Crucifix, the deeper it cuts. Where is the rest you promised? Where is the joy that makes all of this worth it? Why did you bring me here only to put me through this storm? Why don't you save me? Why don't you save us?

 Christ, where are you?

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