nothing special...just something ordinary...

nothing special happened today...but i felt like i needed to write.

this day turned out better than i expected. the three meetings that i had to simultaneously attend got canceled and i was free to go home early. it was great because i finally had time to give my "drawing (more like imitating) ability" time. i was kind of glad at the outcome..*chuckles*

oh and one downside. we got reproached yet again by mr. q. *sighs* when will his menace end? not soon i think. but i apppreciate because it gets me to my butt. haha. and hmmm...i think im loosing the ability to concentrate. especialy in physics. i did learn and understand but when we do the test, i can't seem to answer anything. it's really weirding me off and the opposite thing is happening in math because i sort of had a surprisingly high grade at our wosa today yeah hug me. and yeah i almost forgot my team won the debate yesterday!!!

the proposition was to resolve that gross domestic product is a good indicator of economic growth and standard of living. antonieto and panyang came over last sunday so we could research and agree on our arguments. instead we end up eating pancit canton, drinking pomelo juice and nitpicking gma and abs-cbn. but of course, we already had our arguments before we goofed around. so we were ready and fortunately we won and were awarded as the "BEST DEBATING TEAM" I for one, and for myself won the "BEST SPEAKER" and "BEST CONSTRUCTIVE SPEECH" it was a pretty huge deal for me because i always loved debates. but my classmates didn't care. haha. as if i care if they did. nobody in class, except me that is, loves public speeches or debates so i understand their cold shoulders.

and speaking of ap...my grade went low to 88 which scrapes me from the achievers list. oh well...there were a lot of us so it was okay...oh and one more thing...IM AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM. and im also afraid it's exactly what's happening...omigod...somebody slash my head off....i DON't WANT TO!!!

i have to erase him off my mind...question is how? how when we're going to be together for like...everyday? well, there's only one sentence fit to finish this prattles: I'VE MET MY DOOM.

when i get stuck in my own reverie...

well last night, i got myself soaked in the rain. just for a few seconds...

the feeling of wetness on my skin was beautiful and i wanted to just stay stuck in our patio,indulging my thoughts on the nothingness that hovered before me. the atmosphere was cold but i liked how my skin interacted with it. it's like the rain and i have this connection. the feeling's kind of mutual. im always in good mood when it rains and i don't mind if it disfigures a one-hour-done hair do. furthermore, rain has always a strange way of making me think and recall and remember. it's like a two-way ticket to a very significant reverie.

so i went in and got in bed, but i couldn't sleep. i turned the tv on and flicked through the channels. surprisingly, the shows weren't that bad but i found myself uninterested in the least. i resumed my curled position and my mind suddenly went blank. after a while, there was nothing i could think of and the next second, everything was coming back to me. i thought of everything.

first, i thought of myself and heard myself saying "go to the computer and write something" i was going to but lethargy (okay, okay...laziness)got the best of me so i stayed in that position. and then i began to think how capriciously ambitious i've become. my ambitions are sort of impossible and i don't like the way im turning out to be because of them.

second, i thought of my friends. hmmm.....just realized i wouldn't be me without them and i love them to my last breath. speaking of love, well i also thought about it. a) i confirm that im completely over ezra. i talked to him yesterday and had some interaction but i didn't even blush. he's just an ordinary guy to me now. b) i think im going crazy. why? because im crushin on someone im not supposed to be crushin. but im not gonna write his name here. im a really strange person and i think we have too much in common to ever have this mutual understanding. problem is, he's this very sweet guy and that's the first thing that i fall for. f**k! (yeah right, why don't i just write it, right?) im not in the mood for cussing...

third, CMLI. im kind of excited because i AM!! enough said, right?

4th: my mom...ala lng...naisip ko lang sha...hehe..

lastly: my hair. *sighs* had it rebonded a week ago but it seemed like it just got worse...fuck....now im in the mood..

'till here...oh...i haven't wrote anything for my birthday...how bleak of me...